I think I'm growing up

This is how I feel. point. blank period. Shit I've changed, to me, I feel its for the better, to others, they say, "Gosh, she has changed so much that I don't want to be around her." And quite frankly, I don't give a rat's butt about what anyone thinks, says or does that relates to me. I remember just a few years ago, I would be so consumed with the "word on the street." The street had so many words, opinions, thoughts and feelings about me until I woke up and said, "STFU!" But you know you can't just leave the street wordless, that's what they are there for; insignificant f**king creatures created just to piss you off. Now don't get it twisted, this is not an angry entry. I am quite calm, as a matter of fact, I am super quiet, in total silence. My point is, that as human beings we become so obsessed with what others are saying about us that we forget who we are and what our purpose in life is. I told my brother today that he is damned if he does live up to the "words on the street" and he is damned if he doesn't. Hell, all that really matters is you and God anyway. But no matter how I try or anyone else tries to convince any individual to not worry, they will. But as for me, I've reached the point where I don't give a damn. I have fallen off the face of the earth, and I am content with that. I don't find myself overwhelmed with drama, I simply just cut that shit off. I've been in a constant struggle to find who I am, what I want in life and why I want to fulfill my dreams. I have no time to spend on people, things and places that won't further my growth as an individual. So when someone doesn't speak to me, its okay. Oh you lied to me three days in a row, that's cool. Oh that was your knife in back that you insist upon pushing deeper into my heart, that's what's up. And so on and so forth. I have to live y'all. I have to live. If I don't live for myself, who will? Not anyone else because they will be too damn busy talking about the latest word on the street.

My inner peace has taken over and I think I'm growing up.