Optimistically Insane

I see trees of green

Clouds of white

And I think to myself

What a wonderful world

I see the good in you

I see the evil brought into you

And I think to myself

That it’s only temporary

I see your pain

I see you gain

And I think to myself

That it’s only temporary

If I could only walk into reality

I would slap myself with a piece of it

I could convince myself that you are who you are

And maybe then

The clouds wouldn't be so white

The grass wouldn't be so green

And maybe

It was never a temporary state

Just a permanent trait

That maybe the evil I saw in you

Also dwelled in me

Maybe the weakness I saw you

I hated in me

And the sincerity I thought lay deep within us

Was actually just temporary satisfaction

With no eternal factor

I still hope that one day

You and I will meet each other at the edge of our grass fields

And that on that day

You and I would realize

That your grass is just as green as mine

And that maybe if we would take the fences down

Or at least reconstruct them

That we could have an acre of prosperous land

Instead of hole with no end

The colors of the rainbow

So pretty in the sky

Made of people going by

I see old friends saying they've missed each other

I see old loves rekindling

I see the hope for tomorrow

Not dwindling in the disgust for today

I see it all

I’m optimistically insane

Believing that everything will work out for the greater good

And that there is good in everyone

3am Type of Thoughts

I'm sitting here in complete darkness, in a house that is not a home

More of a temporary hope for what never will come

I can't help but question some of the decisions that I make

Why is it that as a human being, my first inclination is to give myself, wholeheartedly?

Am I blinded by the idea that one day, I will give and then receive something far beyond what my mind can comprehend?

Nevertheless, as I digress to speak my mind

I ponder about something that I told myself weeks ago: To give

Give if you have a little, give if you have a lot

But what happens when you give and all the other person every does is take?

I've observed my friends, family, boos, etc

And I've come to the conclusion that people are sometimes so got damn selfish

Like I understand if every now and then, you need some attention

By all means, I'll be your audience

But got dammit, do you always have to be the star of the production?

And if I miss and show will I be dismissed?

It's funny how sometimes I can be so forgiving, so overlooking

But then, God forbid, that I do something wrong

Please cut my head off and bring it to the offended

I'm just so confused,

If I stay quiet and work hard, I get no where

If I sit strong and speak my mind, I get no where

If I just do nothing at all, I really will get no where

Idk, im just ranting

Having the 3am type of thoughts