Something Strange Happened

So, something strange happened to me last night (7/17/11). I sat with one man talking about the randomness of life, trying to develop a hopeless connection for the future. However, across the room there sat another man who drew my spirit closer to him. There was something about him that made me feel uninhibited. I wanted to be there with him and not the one sitting across from me. As fate would see it, the mysterious man in the corner would work his magic and meet me behind the books, only to have me write more words. Later, I met that guy in another setting. It was as if I knew I shouldn't have been there with him, but I was. We didn't care about the people around us, sitting and staring. We were in our own world, conversationally concentrated, emotionally and physically prepared. It was as if time had frozen and only he and I were allowed to live in peace. Again, I saw that same man in another setting, and it was sweeter than the ones before. It was beautiful. He wanted to dig deeper into my mind, my history, my heart. And my foolish self, I just wanted to give him my all and to walk away knowing that he was all mine. But, then it hit me, temporary satisfaction was not on the menu. Like my encounters with others, I had to give a lecture on wanting more. I explained that just being ordinary was not where I wanted to be. He responded by saying that I was young and I should let the world be my partner. I told him the world couldn't be my partner because the world already had too many lovers and I want to be the only love. Nevertheless, I felt something. I felt that this man had took a piece of my dreams and made them into a reality. For the sake of not seeming so naive, I had to refrain from truly giving him my mind, so instead of telling him the whole story, I only told a third and pleaded the fifth. I hope for more with him. I desire more with him. Honestly...

Deeper Than Sex by Shi Burgess

Kiss me with your words
Make love to me with your mind
Breathe life back into my heart
Send your vibrations after you enter me
Elude my worries as you thrust inside me
Fill me with your sweet tender loins,
As the passion feels me within
Your beauty is heavenly
My warmth intertwined with your being
As the wetness trickles down my legs,
I began to feel the shakes,
The unity of our love is undeniable
You romance my breast,
The tenderness I feel
Your arousal you can no longer hide
No shame upon our faces as we,
Hold each other to our warm embrace
Like a animal in heat, we need more
I sing out tears of joy as I start to climax
The slow tune we've made is all we hear
Your hands caressing my body,
As if I was your electric guitar
He collides deeper, deeper, deeper
As his passion begins to erupt
Kissing my neck with gripped hands on my thighs
His semen I feel through my orgasmic thrills
His nostrils flared at the smell of our love making
His shaft completely satisfied from the forces he's received
Our desires fully fulfilled as we lay in one another embrace

I CAN'T

I can't walk without stepping into shit

I can't talk without rearranging my words to fit your sensitive ass

I can't be happy because I fear that if I put all of my happiness in a bucket someone is going to kick it over

I can't think because my mind is corrupted with the troubles of the world

I can't remain in peace because someone stole my tranquility

I can't love because knowing that you will never love me like you used to is heartbreaking

I can't be empathetic to you because you were not there for me when I was sad, so I recline and daydream about your pain and smile

I can't confide in you because you will tell that bitch from around the block

I can't support you because you will bring me down completely and leave in me in the shack while you enjoy the palace

I can't break bread with you because that season of love is spoiled by an eternity of hate

I can't set rain to the fire because I would rather see you burn

I can't reminisce on all of our good times because that wound is still open and I would rather

not burn it

At this point, I can't finish this piece because.....I just can't.....

I am MY own eneMY

I am my own enemy

Crashing lights fall to pieces that slice my mind

Seeing the dream as a reality, still only a fantasy

Prisoner of my own thoughts

Never had the key

Where did I go wrong?

Sabotaged myself into believing that I could be instantly changed

That if I was dead a little longer my resurrection would be to die for

But my head is constantly spinning with these visions

I see you, I see him, I see them, but I don't see me

Talking, Thinking, Sitting, Watching

Hoping, Dreaming, Wondering, Waiting

Wishing, Conceiving, Feeling, Loving,

Living, Wandering, Believing,

Straight Deceiving

I just feel like I was told to go left instead of right

I followed my first mind and went that side of the fork road

You told me this side was greener

Subconsciously, I have convinced myself that I am in a different realm

I'm not

I'm still my worst enemy

Why you ask?

Because I have box with complexities

I can't break in

And I can't find the damn key

So I'll sit

I'll sit and hope that one day I'll be better

Better able to articulate what it is I truly feel

Because right now,

Words are worthless

And the only thing worthwhile

Is trapped in an abandoned box.

What I Want - Love Styled

I had a conversation with my mom today and we talked about the present and how people act in relationships before, during and after marriage. We compared various couples that we've known. And then, my mother asked me what did I want in a relationship. Well, if anyone knows me, I don't mind expressing myself at all, as a matter of fact, I think I express myself too much lol. So this is what I said:

I want him to say my name with love

I want the even thought of me to make him smile

I want to be the ying to his yang

The sugar to his kool aid

The barbecue on his prime rib

The apple in his pie

I want to be his best friend, his lover, his confidant

I want to be reason why his heart melts

I want to be the seasoning to his soul

I want him to be my protector

I want him to be my king

And when we touch, I want it to be

Like stars colliding

Like a bumblebee living in a honeycomb

I want it be sweet

I want it to be real

I want it to be the product of the heavens

I want it to shake my soul

To make me cry when nothing is wrong

To make me smile just because

To make me wonder

To make me hope

I want a living love

Never content with just being there

But always striving to grow each and every day

Yes, that's it....just you and me

Just us two,

:)