I think too much

In the confines of my mind, I reflect on that which barely crosses the mind of the average person. I think about life decisions. If I could do it all again, would I? Yes, it was those experiences that made me a stronger individual, without them I would probably be weak. Yet, I wonder that if I would have gone right instead of left how different my life would be. I will never know the answer to that question and as I think about it, the grass is not much greener on the other side. Hell, maybe it is worse. Nevertheless, life. life. life. Wow. There are not enough blogs, thoughts, or books written about how one's life is in the hand of him/herself. I agree that the power of life is in one's hand, however, one must never forget that two actors are involved, both God and Satan. So like I said, I think and this is what I thought about last night: I sat in my bed and in darkness, aloud, I called out to Lucifer. I had one simple question: Why fall, when you sat above many? The response was simple: Because he could not sit about God. I began to think about this in relation to my life and the lives of so many. How many times do we sit and say that we have total control over our lives without regard to omnipotence of God? How many times do we act without ever bringing our thoughts/activities to God first? Nearly all of the time. Why is that difficulty? Is it because we want to be independent? Or is it because we want to receive all of the glory and praise when our actions produce success? Regardless of how you answer these questions, my personal response is because we feel that we are independent enough and that actually God does not control ever fiber of our existence. In actuality, He does. What would the world be like if there was no heaven or hell? Would it be paradise? Or would we be just dust, blowing into the sea? Mmmhhh. from ashes to ashes, and dust to dust...someday my questions will be answered.